cause i don't shine if you don't shine.

I believe my last official day of classes for the semester is December 3rd. I have exams the following week. Tonight i looked over my overall course outline and what I may take in the Spring semester. I'll be taking 15 credit hours once again. This semester hasn't been bad so far. I'm a little rusty, it's been 3 years since i've been in school last, and my classes aren't really a walk in the park. Either way, i'm looking forward to the semester being over and getting new classes.

I've been challenged by Caleb to grow a beard. It started roughly five days ago, and I have until Halloween, the 31st, to complete the beard. Five days in, i'm pretty confident. I usually shave about every other day, so me going this long is something new, not to mention funny looking. I'm sure i'll put a picture up here when the final day of the challenge comes. If i am successful, I get ten dollars.

Speaking of that, Josh F. and Caleb are coming down next weekend for Halloween and just to visit. It'll be the third time they've been down so far since i've lived here. It's a blast every time and pretty cool because they'll both be going here next semester.

2006

"If we go with what we think feels right, if gut instinct proves true. If we run with this, if we take the chance. If we try for something new. If anybody's got my heart it's you. Right there hiding in the shadows, you had your hood drawn tight. Too shy, or too scared to come out, you kept yourself inside. The next time you let a little bit out, enough to catch my eye. Best friend who left to find himself, ended up in your hometown. The winter's snow into the spring's new growth. The spring's new growth into a summer on the phone."

i'm always drawn to each horizon; when it's rising when it sets, when all i can think about is sex.

yeah...

compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright...

school work is temporarily stressing me out. i have tomorrow already dedicated to getting everything together and finished, but still, it sucks at the moment.

have i mentioned i want to take a legit vacation/road trip somewhere this coming summer. i'm saying it now because these things take a while to plan, and also because the thought in my head right now is vegas, and that'll take some dough.

fall break was good. felt awesome to be at home, and can't wait for next time. i got a new phone once again, this one is actually good so i plan on having it for a while. if you think i don't have your number, i probably don't so send it to me.
sorry i didn't really have much to say.

if you can't fly then neither will i.

lately there's nothing i miss more than playing music. being in a band and making music with my friends is also something i miss. plans are to have a new keyboard by the end of the year, and i really have a goal set to own a real upright piano by the summer time, hopefully when i have my own place again. i used to have one when i was taking piano lessons but my parents sold it when i stopped and temporarily lost interest. oh well, i'm ready to play again.

i'll be home in 3 days, it feels like it's been years. porch drink, chipotle, skyline, main strausse, reggie, poker, etc. i can't wait.

a one track heart, a one track mind, i'm told that they're not right.

a problem arose tonight with my ride home for fall break, but it seems like it's going to work out better. josh is most likely going to drive down on thursday and we're going to come back on friday when i get out of class. he's in the process of getting admitted here for spring classes and we'll most likely be room mates. i've had a single room this semester and it hasn't been bad so far. i can watch tv when i want, listen to whatever music, it's cool. but josh and i have been friends for several years now so i'm sure it'll work out.

i can't wait for christmas. i'm asking for one thing this year, a keyboard. i am however going to focus on giving. probably something for a couple friends, and of course my parents, and my grandmother. i really want to get my parents something great, they've been so helpful to me over the past few months, starting with letting me move back in rent free up until i moved, and then assisting me financially throughout my semester so far.

'give me distance, friends, and late night songs, take everything.'

i love my friends, i love my family, things are good right now.

i keep my cool one more time, you just keep on walking by.

i've never felt like i do right now after being five hours away from home for the past seven weeks. i'm glad i'm here going to school, i need that, but it's been hard to meet people and make friends. i have no reason to go out and find new friends, i already have great friends who i miss to death. i just need to give it some time i guess. i'll meet people eventually regardless.

growing up one of the things i'd always hear that would scare me to death would be when like a teacher or something would say something like, you won't keep in touch with the people you went to elementary school with, and probably not too many people from junior high and high school, you'll meet most of your life long friends in college. i hated that and never wanted to believe it. this doesn't really have to do with school, i've met a lot of my friends outside of my school, but it's related. i guess i just think back to good times with friends i've kind of fallen out of touch with, and wish i hadn't. it's not that i've fallen on bad terms with people, it's just that things have happened and i've just kind of grown apart from those people. i mean, i'm 22 now, and growing up is inevitable, but i'm ready to lose touch with people who have been close to me over the years.

it's starting to get colder outside, which means fall is here, and winter is right around the corner. the semester is already half way over and i'm happy with how i'm doing so far. the time i've been spending alone in my dorm has been well spent studying and keeping up. i think about a lot of things too, which led to the previous paragraph.